Thank you God for Rebecca!

A few weeks ago we celebrated our oldest daughter Rebecca's 10th birthday! Every year on her birthday I reflect on everything we have been through with her. From her diaphragmatic hernia, to her scoliosis. Every year I ask God "why did you save our daughter and not all of the other children who were diagnosed with a CDH?" Yesterday I realized, I shouldn't be asking God why me...instead I should just be saying thank you God!

Yesterday I received an e-mail from a CDH support group asking for volunteers in FL to help other families who are going through what we went through. The requester gave a little background info on herself. She had a daughter who was diagnosed with a LCDH when she was 20 weeks pregnant. She gave birth to her daughter on July 30, 2002 and her daughter's hernia was surgically repaired a week after birth. I couldn't believe what I was reading! I thought "hey this lady stole my story", but Rebecca was born on July 29th not 30th so I know she hadn't. As I read on, she described the day that her daughter didn't make it.....my heart sank. How could we have the same story with 2 dramatically different results? I started asking God the same old question I've been asking for years, "why did Rebecca live?" God spoke gently to me saying, "stop questioning me and just be thankful. You are hugging your daughter today and not having an anniversary of her death".

Needless to say I get it! I have hugged Rebecca more times today than I think I have her whole life! Today I will spoil her a little more, laugh with her a little harder and sing with her a little louder because I am so thankful that God chose me to be her mom!